I wonder if they will love their time at their new school. Not just like it. But LOVE it. Kindergarten should be magical and fun with continuous opportunities to learn and grow. School should inhale the dreams of all children and exhale all the possibilities of life.
I wonder if they will continue to love books. Will they continue to look at books as a new world of wonder? Will they continue to intensely look at each page thinking about the characters as friends? I wonder if they will share their love of Todd Parr and Fancy Nancy and Mo Willems.
I wonder if they will make good choices at school. Usually I hear about how sweet and quiet they are, but this summer I've seen my fair share of sibling rivalry. Not pretty. I wonder if they will choose kind and be a friend -- to each other and every other child.
I wonder if the girls will depend on each other too much. Will they seek others to connect with? Will one feel left out? I wonder if keeping them together is best for them or best for me. I wonder if they will grow closer, yet grow in their independence.
I wonder if they will continue to be creative and curious and ask questions and make things. Just yesterday I heard: "I know Mommy! This [garbage bag box] can be a mailbox! I'm going to make a flag!" I wonder if they will set up a store and play with their pretend money. I wonder if they will continue to love to draw, doodle in notebooks, and create their own books.
Now more than ever I'm fully understanding the importance of the transformation of schools. Real school should be like real life. Full of opportunities to be curious, create, and be inspired. And time. Time to play and use their imaginations. Without squashing hopes and dreams for compliance and fake engagement.
My whole world -- my two amazing five year olds -- will be entrusted to teachers I do not know yet with students and families that I know nothing about ... and I worry. Of course, I don't show my worry face or express my fears to my girls, but I've been thinking about life in our house in the next three weeks.
There will be many conversations and life lessons. I pray that God continues to give me the right words to share and eases any of our concerns.
I want try my best to be hopeful and excited ... But then I wonder what else there is to wonder about. I'm sure there will be more as we enter this whole new world.